Date : Monday, September 7, 2009
Time : 11:18 PM
Title : FUCKED UP DAY!

Gonna just blurt out what I've been feeling these past few days... If you wanna read go ahead but it's just plain rubbish & you're just wasting ur time...

I hate pretending everything's all fine when it's obviously so not... Not that you guys care or can tell in the first place so juz forget I said that... I also hate liars, backstabbers & people talking behind me! If you got the guts to talk bout me behind my back, den say it straight to my face in front of me!!! If you're just gonna talk abt me in a language i dun understand in front of me, for example, CHINESE, den dun invite me to come in the first place or shall I say dun expect me to come for anything in the future or add me in some messed up MSN convo which I'll nvr enjoy! I've got my own problems, what do u guys care? You guys dun even noe anything bout me to begin with or dun bother knowing. So dun make more problems than there already is! Secondly, dun even bother replying me if I initiate a conversation and u dun feel like talking to me! It's better than me always having my hopes up for a reply and u juz reply me when u feel like it! Better still, u juz leave without a word even when we were in the middle of a conversation. You want silent GOODBYEs? Den dun expect any HIs in the future! Thirdly, dun fucking say I'm rich coz I'm not! I handle money wisely, that's all. If you think I uncaringly spend my money without thinking, think again! I saved every single penny just to spend on whatever it is you see me spending on! If I want to pay, dun reject, but when I don't pay, plz understand I'm not being stingy... Actually, I dun even know what rubbish I'm typing now... Just needed to type things... Freaking messed up in my mind now with no one to talk to... Heck... Who would wanna talk to me in the first place... How can 1 person be thinking of like 100 things at once? Well that's me. I think alot, too much, more than usual, always two steps ahead that people dun realize what they are doing was actually what I've already had in mind in the first place, call it whatever you want... If you think that I may look lost or acting stupid? Think again, I may just want you to think that way... Let's move to a more happy story...

I LOVE MY HAIRSTYLIST!!! Hahaha, not that. It's just that she's so pretty!!! She's taken so dun you guys have any weird thoughts!!! Ok, where do I begin... I went to Jeric Salon at The Ion to look for this hairstylist that a friend recommended me as he told me she was good and always does his hair for him for Fashion Shows. I went and saw her and asked for her to cut for me, she was nice and professional as expected. As she showed me to my seat, I suddenly saw a familiar face, shampoo-ing a customer's head in the salon. As I came closer and she noticed me and smiled at me and I smiled back at her, I was 100% sure it was her! It was my old hairstylist from Snip Avenue at Buangkok who I usually saw for my haircut but since it was too far from my home, I stopped seeing her already but now I discovered her here, at Jeric Salon at The Ion! I WAS SOO HAPPY!!! She moved there just since a month ago. I'm so coming back here to cut my hair from now onwards!!! Anyways, she made a really good choice to switching to this salon as compared to her old salon, which I bet they paid her peanuts as compared to where she is now which utilizes her potential fully! Okay, enuf abt her, I'm not saying her name, keeping her to myself, LOL! And yes i did get a haircut which I regretted not keeping my long fringe... =( Plz grow back FASTER!!! PLZ!!! I hate going out when I dun like how I look like... Not looking good equals no self-confidence!!! =(

Went for my secondary school class reunion BBQ after that. Was so happy that I saw u peeps after all this while and we all are still the best of frenz! Ate LOTS as compared to the last BBQ... Nvm, dun mention that last BBQ which I attended the previous week... I know I wasn't supposed to be there... Not that anyone cares whether or not I came or not... Would have been much better without me...Anyways, took LOTSA photos at the BBQ! Drank like a carton or 2 or 3 of Ribena? HAHAHA!!! But somehow I felt an air of hindrance or avoidance in the air, seems like it came from HER... Looks like she hasn't forgiven me for last time... Well, her problem coz I've forgotten all abt it and put it behind me, it's not as if it was a problem in the first place but if you want it to be, then I'll leave it to you for the rest of ur life. Packed up and played mahjong after that til like 3am. I was winning the entire night!!! WOOHOO but everyone's sleepy so we went off and I went home in a cab with YM. My mum was still up and was screaming when I came home late, I'm sure even the dead would wake up... Anyways, what's new? Just another screaming day... All she wanna do is control me to listen to her every command for the rest of my life...

Now gotta plan for 090909. What interesting things can be done on that day with my friends? I was thinking of making it a totally 9 day. You know, whatever u do u gotta do it 9 times, whatever u bring, u gotta bring 9 of it. Then there were 9 dares to do within that day and there are 9 rules that u have to adhere to no matter what during that day. I know only I can think of these stupid and funny stuff but I dun think my frenz like this kinda funny things and ideas so I didn't even mention it to them although it sounds fun... And I was invited to attend the gala opening of this club called Se7en on that exact same day, 09-09-09. Have an RSVP which I haven't replied yet but I guess I'm gonna turn them down. What's clubbing when compared to spending time with friends, right? I love my friends... Just wished that they felt the same towards me as well... Guess I'll go brainstorm more ideas and try not to disappoint them more than I already have...

P.S. Always living up to others' expectations... Is it really worth it...?

Just come & go as you plz...
I'm just insignificant... As usual...