Date : Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Time : 11:59 AM
Title : Hari Raya with ex-South View Primary School Friends Outing '09

Date :
Time : 7:22 AM
Title : Ke Ying's Flying Off!!!

Bestie's leaving town today for a week (actually only 5 days, haha!) to Hong Kong! Cool or what!? This post is dedicated to her! I found the perfect song to dedicate to her too, I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane, HAHA!!

Date : Sunday, September 27, 2009
Time : 5:41 PM
Title : Sayonara Daisuki Na Hito

P.S. Feelings put into words. Thoughts that will never be revealed.

Date : Saturday, September 26, 2009
Time : 11:46 PM
Title : Hari Raya @ my house

P.S. House was a mess today. Parties are always like that. Went to catch FAME! I really wished I had watched it with my besties instead of bringing out my cousins' & relatives' kids to go watch it just because it was the only decent show that is PG at the theaters in Shaw, near my house. It's a really damn good movie. Gonna download the movie's soundtrack now. There's a particular song I REALLY LIKE from the movie in the scene whereby the guy sings to the girl all his feelings & thoughts and put it in words that will melt any girls' heart. The words in that song, were the words I was looking for but were never found...

Date : Friday, September 25, 2009
Time : 11:48 PM
Title : Tears

P.S. Please recover by Sunday 11am so that we can meet at 1pm as planned Chan Jing Yu!!! if CK dun kill you, i'll kill you. Need to fill you in on everything and there's a couple of things I wanna beat the crap out of you as well! And MJ, F1 Rocks Concert totally blew the roof off the stage!!! Gwen Stephani's six-pack... OMG!!! And NO, you dun need to get a boob job done to get boobs like her for god's sake! LOL. Too bad there were only 2 tickets. Go again next year!! =)

Date : Thursday, September 24, 2009
Time : 11:59 PM
Title : Singapore No.1 Jubeat Player

Date : Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Time : 11:55 PM
Title : Qin Zhi's 19th Birthday

To my dear friend, Hana.
I'm glad you dumped your boyfriend... Sorry... I meant ex-boyfriend the day before Hari Raya and spoilt his mood for Hari Raya. I already told you I had a feeling he wasn't right for you when I first saw him and that you deserved better. Now that you finally found out that he cheated on you by sleeping with his best friend's girlfriend, seeing & flirting with other girls at the time when you were loyal to him, was it all worth it? I take it as a NO! Like I said, dun just settle for the one you have, settle for the one that's right. You obviously can get better guys, why just stick to one when you haven't get to know others? Did you know that there are people that would like to spend every single moment, every single second, every single breath they have with you? You're way too nice to always just give in to guys, take charge because you're the woman, he's the man! He should be the gentleman that is doing your every bidding, not the other way round! An unfaithful guy like him doesn't deserve a woman like you. Believe in yourself, alright? So what if you 2 have been together for a long time? 1 year? 2 years? 3 years? LIKE I GIVE A DAMN if this is how he treats you! Let me tell you something, if he got the guts to do this to you now & will prioritize DOING other things over you & SEEING other people over you, what do you think will stop him from doing so yet again in the near future? Are you just gonna tolerate? Are you just gonna live with it and say that's just how it is? NO! A happy life is what everyone wants & what everyone deserves as they have the right to it. We're all still young, we've still many years ahead of us. I'm telling you now not to worry about your future as I foresee a brighter one for you ahead. Take care! As usual, you know how to reach me (like u always do) when you need me. We're all here for each other so NEVER call me up but later on say sorry and that you're just bothering me and wasting my time with your nonsense, because there's nothing else I'd rather spend my time doing at that time other than listening to you. (unless I got a girlfriend that is but i'm sure she'll understand and tells me to go cause my friend needs me. but i don't have one in the first place so no worries.) Smile, okays! (: -Haziq


Today has been a great day filled with fun, joy & laughter. Celebrated my friend's birthday, got to flirt with a hot chick (WHAT!? she kept staring at me first! Haha, anyways it was fun while it lasted, too bad we weren't in a club as I could buy her a drink. Was just wondering how long I could last with her in a conversation... it was just a game to me as she was obviously way out of my league! Dun have any funny thoughts, plz... -.-).

Me: Hi!
Her: Yes?
Me: Do you have a menu which i can refer to? (Pretending I know nothing about them when I just read up and know everything about them the day before)
Her: No we don't. (Just ending your sentence there? Keeping silent & not telling me anything about the store's menu or items you offer? Purposely wanting me to ask another question, right. Playing hard to get, huh!)
Me: So what do you guys serve? (Pretends... AGAIN! :x )
Her: We do only ice-creams & cakes. Cakes are for take-away only.
Me: Ohh, so what can I have to be able to dine-in here? (to be able to spend more time with you, sweetie!)
Her: You can have the ice-cream. (smiles.)
Me: Alright, give me a single scoop. (or a double so that i could share one with you. Then again, you work here so I guess you're sick of eating it everyday already, haha!!)
Her: Sure! (She really gave me a really huge scoop later on, heehee!)

Haha, it was fun while it lasted. She was still staring at me occasionally while working after that, haha!! It's okay, not everytime I can chat with someone pretty who bothers to entertain me, other than my bestie that is, haha. Collected the cake there, went off to surprise the birthday-boy at his house, was a successful one too! Scared the pants out of him!!! Celebrated, crapped, took photos, had fun & went home. Was wondering if we could catch dinner together after that but it was already late since plans were pushed back abit and my friends have work the next day so have to spare a thought for them. Not going into details today as the people who were involved and knows about it, will keep it in their memories forever. =)

Went up Lot 1 arcade for awhile before heading home to play Jubeat. Met Lucas Leong there, Singapore's No.1 Jubeat player and champion. Compared to him when we were playing side by side, I didn't even came close with my skills!!! LOL! Anyways, it was an honour to be able to meet and play with such a skilled player. He always amazes me when he plays. I could still remember the first time I saw him play, he was the first one that made believe the impossible can done! Went off when the arcade closed.

P.S. I was there but I couldn't do a single thing, I'm sorry that I couldn't stop it from happening and hurt you... And I'm also sorry that my presence was a burden that held you guys back from eating at where you intended to... Although I know people will start killing me for saying this but I just felt that I had to apologize, haha. No worries, everything turned out great, right! =)

Date : Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Time : 10:00 PM
Title : Supper at Popeye's

It's 4am & I juz got back from Changi Airport for supper at Popeye's with besties. Not really a good idea for me since I've got transportation issues back home after 12am on a weekday but wth! If it means I could see my bestie, den I'm more than happy to go! Plus, I've gotta make up for my previous misbehaviour & absence for Fullerton Hotel Chocolate Buffet, so treated them to the Popeye's meal today instead. I know I've eaten at my cousin's house just now for dinner when I went visiting but I could still eat and because of the long journey to the airport. LOL! Was gonna meet bestie first but sadly, she was caught up due to work, so I reached the Airport first and was disappointed that Candy Empire was already closed by the time I reached there... I wanted to shop for some sweets & tidbits for besties (and also my little sister) first.

We ate at Popeye's and made a new friend, Marcus. This emo guy with an attitude. Hahaha!! He may not be the best friend, but he's good to have around for entertainment, at least that's what I think. HAHAHA!! From what I observe, I classify him a category P person (yes, I study people, analyze them and conclude results after building up a profile on them. Where do I store all these information? In my head. Scary isn't it?) Humans are the most interesting things in the world. Just try observing everyone around you for one day. You'll get what I mean. But please remember they're never to be test subjects for experiments. Especially your closed ones. Never use people for self-achievement or in short, play with their feelings for a desired outcome. Mentally breaking down is worse than physical drawbacks.

Ate, slacked, chatted, something I haven't done with besties in a long time cause of fasting month and I missed out on alot of things, not that I get updated on it or anything, haha it's okay. I'll invite them for dinner soon one day. Will it or will it not be in time, I still need to check it out tmr. Okays, I know u dunno what I'm talking about, haha. Went to Crowne Plaza Hotel for a while to explore. The receptionist was DAMN PRETTY!!! All I asked her was how much it would cost to spend the night. HAHA, that sounds so wrong! It was $280++ subject to taxes. Cabbed home later on with besties, the last moments before we left when we were still at TRCC were ridiculously hilarious thanks to Marcus. LOL!!! Dropped my female bestie off first, den it was my place before the last stop. Spared $34 for the cab fare which was $52 in total.

P.S. I've never felt better after today when I let the cat out of the bag. Now it just takes time to heal the wounds as the pain is over and soon it'll only be scar.

Date : Sunday, September 20, 2009
Time : 11:59 AM
Title : Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Went for morning Aidilfitri prayers at the mosque at 7am. Felt terrible since I didn't sleep since yesterday... Wonder how I survived the rest of the day, haha! Showered, put on my SB-Line baju kurung (traditional malay clothes from the line that this Brand called SB offers. It's a malay-high-class-brand thing which to me still sounds low-class since it's related to malays when compared to Gucchi, LV or Chanel. LOL!), wore my new Swatch watch which cost me $169 and finished up by putting on my Christian Dior buttons (dun ask me the cost of this one) & of course, straightened plus styled my hair and last but not least a little touch of perfume from my Bvlgari Aqva. My fringe isn't behaving today, it's curling the opposite direction even after straightening! Ergh! Talk about a bad hair day at the wrong timing!



By the time I went out of my room, my mum & dad were already seated on the sofa getting ready for our usual "Asking for forgiveness" tradition. And so, I shook their hand, gave them a hug and a kiss on each cheek and apologized to them for anything wrong I've ever did in the past. I'm sure I'll be doing more wrong though, haha. It's just that at least we've apologized for the past troubles we ever gave them so it's a heavy load off our hearts. Later on, it was our family picture time with ME as the photographer, as usual every single year. =)


Made our way to my father's side relatives' house. I dunno why but it seems that I'm getting closer & closer to them every year, haha! One of them said they were pretty good with bowling... We'll just see who's the better one if we ever get to bowl against each other one day, haha!! My family came early. Or rather... We were late but the other families were even later... So we didn't get to see all but only 2 families in time for my father's side. My cousins who were supposed to entertain me even fell asleep while seating on the sofa, haha. I ended up just watching TV for an hour and soon it was off to my Mum's side relatives' place. Only then when they woke up and escorted us to the door that we started chatting and delayed our leave by 15minutes by standing at the doorstep & just talk. LOL!

Got bitten on my leg by a HUGE red army ant since I wore my NUM Havaianas Limited Edition black slippers with silver wordings while waiting for the cab. Ouch! Damn stinging pain can!? Was the first family to arrive when we reached. My two single uncles were already there too. This side I'm more comfortable chatting with rather than my dad's side as we're just warming up, haha! I chatted alot, got to see their HUGE cat that always rubs itself on my legs and leaves its fur stuck to my pants. Damn cute!!! Went over to my cousin's in-law place after that as my cousin just got a baby girl on 10 September 2009, so close to 09-09-09, hahaha and they told me they were hoping for it to happen on that day too! LOL! Went over, like ALL our mum's side families which surprisingly fit with 2 cars, 1 mini-van & 1 motorcycle! When we arrived, we were like an army matching to their house, lol. The baby girl was soo CUTE!


It was time to go home soon after that & count my total profit/gain from all the green packets! After catching up & stuff, I'm sorry for your recent break-up cousin! And for my another cousin, I know it's complicated at the moment but you'll pull through! I guess we're all having these kinda issues now, haha... It's the EMO season but we can't be EMO today though, haha! I'll bring you for shopping one day, alright? My treat for one entire day. =)

P.S. It's not everytime I get to wear my expensive stuff. Hahaha!! Gonna be wearing my shirt I bought from Barker (Benjamin Barker) & my Uniqlo S-001 jeans tmr. Finally clothes that I'm much more comfortable wearing and suits my style! =)

Date : Saturday, September 19, 2009
Time : 11:30 PM
Title : Weird Music Line-up

What's with all these songs playing on the radio today? Is 98.7fm against me as well? HAHA!! They just keep coming! All these songs one after another... I was like...

Date : Friday, September 18, 2009
Time : 11:20 PM
Title : Fullerton Hotel DInner Buffet... NOT!!! (Wake-Up Call)

3 words... I CANNOT GO!
3 words... I HATE MYSELF!
3 words... I LOVE BESTIES!
3 words... I AM SORRY!
3 words... I FEEL BAD!
3 words... I FEEL GUILTY!
3 words... I AM DISAPPOINTING!
3 words... I AM IRRITATING!
3 words... I FEEL ALONE!
3 words... I KNEW IT!
3 words... I LOST HOPE!
3 words... I NEED _ _ _ _ _ _!
(hint: Persons' name with a spacing sumwhere...)

I'm just FURIOUS after arguing with mum!!!

"Since today is the LAST night of the fasting month before Hari Raya, I DISALLOW YOU FROM GOING OUT TODAY! You are having dinner with the family whether you like it or not! Don't be stubborn!!! It's the LAST DAY for the NIGHT PRAYERS at the mosque! YOU BETTER GO!!! I dun give a damn about your friends!". (That's what happens when you dun have true friends that you can share a friendship with... People that you actually care about alot...)

Talking is useless with this woman, debating is worst, arguing is EVEN worst, SCREAMING & SHOUTING can wake the whole entire block up... I can't live at home in peace when she's around... The only time that she'll open her mouth to me is when I do something wrong, is angry at someone else, want something from me or because of money! Money! Money! Money! I DUN NEED UR MONEY!!! Never a praise or sympathy from you even when good or bad... Yes, I know I'm a failure in life, no need to emphasize on that! As if you ever give me enuf! I juz keep quiet and make do with what I have by sometimes not even eating! I'm glad I have events, projects and jobs on & off to gimme a stable financial life at the moment... (that reminds me, my pay is just in... better check on it soon...) I'm trying to support myself as much as I can without anyone's help but you're still keeping me on a leash? When you gonna let go of me!? Irritating! I'd be happier if you told me "Do whatever you want!". One day I'll make it big and SHOW YOU! I hope...

Wednesday I had plans but pushed forward to Thursday, why? Cause you asked me to go to some shop and shop for bakery stuff. I accepted and pushed forward my plans to Thursday... Thursday you screamingly woke me up at 12pm for no reason saying it's already afternoon... I WANNA SLEEP FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! Then you suddenly tell me we're going for Concourt Hotel Poolside Dinner Buffet with the family! I was like... Okay... canceled my plans and pushed forward yet AGAIN! And TODAY... I'm supposed to go for a movie & off to Fullerton Hotel for my friend's advance birthday celebration!!! And yet, once again you SUCCEEDED in SCREWING UP my plans yet again with your little demands!!! ARGH!!! Do you know how much trouble & misery you caused me today that I had to make like over 10 calls!?! After saying this, no matter what, she's still my mother... Haiz...

I'm not angry anymore... I just feel sad that I can't attend my friend's celebration which we've been looking forward to for a MONTH! I feel really bad... (tears...) It leaves a worse, deeper bad impression on me than what I already have... I'm feel such a letdown... It's not as if I dun wanna come, I was dying to come making up excuses and seeing if I could rush here and there and attend some or part of it... But it was impossible... All I wanted was for him to be happy... Those reading this already know the rest of the story so I shall not elaborate any further. You can ask me anything if you want though... I'll answer it. Hate me if you must. I accept the disgrace... I'll make it up to you... Somehow... I hope... If you let me to... "Empty promises". I'm sure this line says alot about me...

Date : Thursday, September 17, 2009
Time : 9:05 AM
Title : Amway, Another #$%@ MLM!?!

It's now 5.45AM on 18 September Friday & guess what? I haven't caught a single wink of sleep since yesterday... Sleepless week... This makes it a total of only 5-10 hours of sleep for me in 5 days (120 hours)? Am I bothered about something? Maybe. Izzit something hurting? As pain as hell but recovering. Will I get over it? Yes, hopefully, I juz need time... Does anyone know bout it? Yes but I won't say who and I guess some are already guessing things... I may collapse anytime, haha... Not that it matters or anything... Better get some sleep or they'll be able to tell from my obvious eyes of what I've been going through other than not sleeping... Heck maybe I'll wear some make-up to cover it up? LOL!!! I better rest or I'll be late for the movie later with BESTIES and than off to FULLERTON HOTEL for our COURTYARD DINNER!!! WOOHOO!!! Can't wait!!! I'm gonna put my EMO-ness on holiday for awhile and just enjoy the moment with BESTIES!!! =D

AMWAY, another freaking useless MLM (multi-level-marketing) company who is trying to prey on those poor Singaporeans who are DESPERATE of a job... Zzz...

Firstly, I'd like to say my experience YESTERDAY with a "business plan" my fren proposed. At first I got a call from him that his "fren" (which was actually one of his senior teammate in this "company") has a "business proposal" and is looking out for people to partner up with to make it a success. Sounds cheesy? It gets better. Since he is my "fren", i decided to play along with it. First asked to meet at City Hall MRT station, den "pretended" that he couldn't meet me there as he couldn't leave his place so asked to meet at Starbucks Coffee at Suntec Convention Centre. Being the tolerant, flexible and patient person I am, I agreed. When I arrived, I immediately saw people with suits & ties swarming the entire place, I knew it. I had entered "their" territory. There's no turning back now, it's another MLM (multi-level-marketing) SHIT!!! So I waited for him to arrive with his "business partner". When they arrived in their smart suits & ties, you can't fool me... Robinsons pants, G2000 shirt & tie... You think you look all fancy? You left out one thing... Your watch was a $10 watch from Far East Plaza's push-cart stall. Hilarious... You wanna ask me questions? Sure, I'm more than happy to give you crappy answers that goes against your psychological intents with unreadable patterns of human behaviour causing you to be unable to analyze me and make a deduction of what type of person I am or what question you should ask next to convince me more because I don't look convinced at all or shall I say, you can't tell if I'm convinced or not.

Continue by bringing out your scenarios, examples and brainwashing questions which an average Singaporean would immediately give a typical answer, the answer YOU wanna hear, but guess again. You dunno who you're messing with! You're talking to the wrong person my friend! You're dealing with the Marketing Director & President of Gaming.RP, BOY! I'm no average smooth-talker like YOU! I've done much bigger & larger stuff than you, handled worst and harder situations than this. You ask me about the economic crisis? How come you didn't know what I was talking about when I mentioned about the Lehman Brothers closedown or the Wall Street crisis? HAHA!!! Shame on you! Next you asked me a question between my son's birthday and a $1 000 000 deal and I could only choose one as I had to be at only 1 location since i said BOTH and u said i could only choose one? I CHOSE MY SON'S BIRTHDAY & you said I'm a family-man!? LOL! what rubbish!? Lemme ask you one thing then?

If you were driving in a car on a rainy day and you see 3 people at the bus stop. A really hot childhood crush whom you've lost contact with and have been dying to meet her, a best friend whom you owe a really big favour to & an old lady who needs to go to the hospital urgently. Your car is only a two-seater.

Which one would you choose?

He chose the old woman by saying of course as thinking logically and sensibly, she's the one with the highest priority at that moment just like business, the more expensive deal comes first. Well, lemme tell you, if it were me, I'd choose ALL! How you ask? I'll ask my friend to drive the old woman to the hospital, then I'll be able to talk to my childhood crush at the bus stop. Get it? You're sharp! That's all the response you can say bout me? You good for nothing "legal conmen"? Next he invited me to attend the "business seminar" upstairs at the function room. WOW! You guys actually booked Suntec City Convention Centre's Function room? LOL! The best part is, once you agreed to it and am on the way there, they'll start PRETENDING bout "Oh, have you told him bout the ticket price? It's to offset the booking of the Function room. We dun gain anything from it. BIG SMILES*" TICKET PRICE!? WTF!?! Even VE (Venture Era) don't charge people to brainwash them! 7bucks??? SURE!!! I'll give you a 10 and keep the change. By now, he's feeling damn outwitted & outplayed by me and only sticked to "safe lines" of conversations. HAHA, LOSER!!!

Went up & entered the Function Room. 3/4 of the people in the room are THEIR people... Those who have been poorly tricked are mostly normal-paid employees or unemployed people. Yeah, we watched videos of how we could build our Social Network and create "pipelines" to gain money by recruiting more and more people and asking them to buy products... LAME!!! Motivational speakers were on stage, each with VERY WELL-REHEARSED lines which they dun even have to think of what they have to say! They're even inviting MORE PEOPLE to come back AGAIN to the SAME function room this weekend for ANOTHER "SEMINAR" which is a much more "detailed" briefing of what the company does... Zzz... You guys are just smooth-talkers preying on the weak and innocent mind. SHAME ON YOU!!! Pay $69 and you instantly get the distributor rights to the range of products you offer? LOL! No thanks. After the seminar ended, they invited us to speak to the "leaders" & higher-ups with high posts, WHY NOT!? I'd be MORE THAN HAPPY to speak to these so-called "SUCCESSFUL" business people!!! My answers were filled OH I SEE... Zzz... What is your future direction? This is what you gonna do for the rest of your life? Difference between Passive Income & Active Income? Cash flow quadrant? LOL!!!

As if I didn't paid any attention in my Marketting module in RP!!! ROFL! I know all of these wayy better than you guys do who only reads something from a book and believes it... lame-shit... I met like 2 "high people"? I didn't find anything special int them. Just that they could speak faster and fluently and are good with words. Lastly they gave us some "freebies" to read and listen to, to get more convinced to join them... You even repeated to me 3 times when is the next day that we could fix an appointment when I already told you, unlike your miserable life with plain boring & unoccupied days, I'm already fully-booked with plans throughout this ENTIRE MONTH!!! After hearing my background and my post in RP, I'm sure you're stunned how I could attain much more than you in such a small time and at such a younger age than you, let's say 3-4 years younger? I'll give you some face. All I mentioned was that I had a sponsor behind me and I've partnered with 3-4 gaming industry companies & it already made you SPEECHLESS! Take that SUCKER!!! Before I left, I said my last line...

Don't call me, I'll call you! (Which I'll never call at all & they dun have my number.)

P.S. It was a fun ride. It's been a long time since I played mind-games with people like these. I should do this more often! It takes my mind off "things". Hate people who underestimate people, especially those with no knowledge whatsoever. You wanna outsmart me? I'm waiting to see you try! If thins goes smoothly, think again. You might think that you are leading or winning, but for all I know, I got you where I want you to be. =D

Date : Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Time : 5:00 AM
Title : Ke Ying (sore-throat)

Me plus you (I'ma tell you one time)

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop
And even though its a struggle love is all we got
And we gonna keep keep climbing till the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (and now I've got my)

One love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Lemme tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my number one girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
And I'ma tell her one time
Give you everything you need
Down to my last dime

She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side cause
She is the one

Date : Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Time : 8:00 PM
Title : Trust (due to Qin Zhi)

Words are just words... However, the trust people put behind the words can never be measured & predicted no matter how convincing it is...


Dun need to know... I'm glad I have besties whom I can pour everything out to... Whom I know will never keep things from me or betray me... I hope...

"is always hiding stuff"

I hide stuff from everyone all the time. *sigh* I just cause too much trouble being around others... I can say I'll be there for them & all, yet, when others need me the most, when tears fill up their eyes, I'm so helpless and useless & what do I do? Just crack jokes to keep that smile on their faces & do stuff to occupy them to take their mind off things... What a failure... The effort they put to make things happy is double the effort I put into mine and they try so hard yet I just take it for granted... I'm such a disgrace... I shall juz isolate myself in my own fictional world... Juz like you have to find your comfort-zone...

Lies

Some things are just better off untold... Or so they say...

On a side-note, to all my helpers, I've gotten all ur pays ready. I've gotten all ur bank account numbers. It'll be banked into your accounts in 2-3 working days time. Happy u got ur pay already right? Hahaha, told u I won't cheat ur money... I dun even want ur money... Sheesh, I dun really care about money... -_-"

P.S. Haven't slept for 48hours & counting since Sunday... Dun ask why. I dunno myself... Even if I knew, it's not something that can easily be put into words... I look like a freaking panda now... My eyes... I'm not sure it's due to not sleeping or the "water"... No more, I'm just too troublesome to have around... I'll just be the best I can be although the best is still the worst. All these stuff are about me & not targeted to anyone, so plz dun misunderstand. Got out of a dump & entered a slump.

Date : Monday, September 14, 2009
Time : 5:15 AM
Title : The shocking truth! (End of Ke Ying)

Basically NOTHING happened yet as it's 5am and I just begun my day... Really NOTHING happened... NOTHING at all... Just like I waited and hoped... for NOTHING...



In the end, it was all just false hope that I made myself believe... Or more accurately, I was blinded & couldn't see the obvious...


P.S. I wanted the truth, I got the truth. It hurts like hell, but at least it was the truth. Been stabbed in the heart by the very same mirror I just shattered into an infinity of pieces.

Date : Sunday, September 13, 2009
Time : 11:58 PM
Title : Cyber Alliance Society SA Competition & First "Private Time" with Ke Ying

Haven't been asleep for 30+ hours and counting... Was bothered by what others think of me, as usual... But it was more than that, glad it's over and I'm happy that I finally was able to say everything that I was holding back and things were set right. We all make mistakes, just that the ones I make are BIG ones... Once again, I apologize to you sincerely for every single wrong I've done. Luv ya lots, you know who you are. <3


Was working today at Parklane Shopping Mall. Arrived at Cyber Alliance Society half-an-hour earlier than supposed to. That LAN-shop currently has a promotion that charges just 50cents per hour between Mondays to Thursday, 1pm-6pm. How cheaper can you get than that!? Anyways, my job there was to Marshal the Sudden Attack Competition held there on that day. Was a poor start with a few blur new trainees with no experience with the game whatsoever and I had to hold a quick briefing and dry-run with them and settle with a 5-minute training for them and hope for the best since I was the in-charge & chief-marshal that day. The rest was just left to the hands of fate. Zilch, the shop's Operation Manager was quite cool and great to work with as I expected him to know certain stuff and he did. Everything left to him to handle was carried out smoothly. Good leadership skills and great cooperation. As for the trainees, they had a long way to go as the first few matches were delayed and I was called here & there to settle numerous stuff simultaneously. I can't be at 2 places at the same time, you know? Plus I didn't sleep the previous night due to something I deeply regretted and will never do/say again.


Anyways, expected number of teams was 16 but the turn-out was only 10 teams. Not bad for a small-scale event. It ended exactly on time too. Correction, exactly on time based on the expected number of 16 teams. Therefore, if 16 teams were to arrive as expected, this event wouldn't have ended on time or close to it at all! Phew... The last match for 1st & 2nd was the most intense, I had to give 2 warnings to both teams!!! 1 warning for vulgarities (#$%& YOU!) and 1 warning for taunting (This is how we do it! Go back your to country!). 1 more warning and they accumulate a total of 3 warnings and they'll be DISQUALIFIED from the competition straight away!!! What do I care if you're good but have no professionalism or self-respect? I'm the chief-marshal, I'm in-charge and I run this competition! What I say goes!!! Too bad for you!


When the competition ended, underdogs were seen. The LAN-shop people were nice & I made new friends! Heck, the ENTIRE LAN-shop knows me! Hahaha!!! We played dOtA together after the competition and of course, those who were in my team won. LOL! Not saying I'm good or anything but I had pretty good teammates myself! I guess that's what happens when you work in a LAN-shop too much. LOL!!!

Went over to meet her at her workplace after my competition ended. Was hoping to have get some dinner with/for her but she had no breaks that day due to evening-shift. Visited her at her workplace for a while coz I was curious to see her in her working environment. Heehee!! Went off to grab a bite to eat alone for a little bit while waiting for her to end work. Poor her having no voice, get well soon, okay! Grabbed a cup of Pure Chocolate Ice Blended for her from Coffee Bean before meeting her. Glad she liked it, it WAS her craving after all! Haha!! Accompanied her to the bus stop and waited for her bus to arrive. We chatted like there was no tomorrow since it was just the two of us on a peaceful night. We don't quite have much alone-time together so it was nice that we did that night. Sometimes having just 1 friend beside you is what you really need. We chatted bout... "Topics that shouldn't be discussed?" Haha!! Shh, shh!!!


P.S. The only apologies should be coming from me.

Date : Saturday, September 12, 2009
Time : 11:33 PM
Title : Catch-up Session With a Korean Bestie!

Started off my day with waking up due to noisy screaming/arguing parents just because of different methods of wiping/cleaning windows... Yes... That lame... I couldn't continue sleeping any longer with all these noise... So I woke up coz it was 3pm anyways...

Bestie sms-ed me a weird question, which I was left hanging to answer so didn't really know how I shd answer... Although I MAY juz be acting blur and avoiding the question actually. LOL!!! Anyways, cleaned my own room windows before the wicked witch starts screaming at me and not only my dad...

After that, was freaking not in the mood to stay home so I went out instead to catch up with H! Miss her to the max, man!!! Haven't seen her for like ages!!! She kinda disappeared on me for 4-5 months before suddenly popping out of nowhere with a phone-call. Picked her up first before heading to Bugis for dinner together. At where you ask? Pastamania! Why? It's because that food-outlet holds lots of memories for us! From the time we first met to the food we like to eat there. LOL! Nevertheless, we made more memories there today... GAY ones... Zzz!!! NOT GONNA GO INTO THAT!!! CENSORED!!! Ok, basically it was just this Indian seating cross-legged like a woman and smiling at me throughout the entire time we were there... Okay, enuf of that! Moving on, we talked lots of rubbish and crap-ed alot!

Went off to Iluma to finish off with desert at Marble Slab Creamery. I seriously LOVE the ice-cream there!!! You guys should go there too!!! The Banana Split is the most worth the money to buy with your choice of 3 out of the WHOLE ENTIRE RANGE OF FLAVOURS for you to choose from at a reasonable price. Around 20-30 flavours? Anyways, speaking of BANANAS... Ok, nvm. If they ask between hot chocolate fudge & caramel, choose CARAMEL!!! How stupid can you be!? Of course, CARAMEL!!! LOVE CARAMEL!!! After desert, it was off home-sweet-home. Dropped her off first with... MORE encounters with INDIANS along the way... Nvm, dun wanna elaborate on that... Miss ya dearie!!! Let's do this more often! Luvs. xoxo

P.S. Never felt better. Luv ya H! You made my day.

Date : Friday, September 11, 2009
Time : 11:44 PM
Title : Gary's "poetic" FB Status

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match, with intent to start a fire.
But recently, the flames are getting out of control.
Call me a name, kill me with words.
Forget about me, if it's what I deserve.

P.S. I saw it... The tears in her eyes... And I couldn't do a single thing except make stupid jokes & talk about stuff to take her mind off things... What a letdown... Totally helpless... More accurately, hopeless...

So near, yet so far...

Date : Thursday, September 10, 2009
Time : 11:30 PM
Title : Blood Ties & Singapore Flyer (Night-View)

Backs!!! Went to catch "Blood Ties" with besties, the show had a good storyline and plot with a twist but it was way too draggy as they repeated the same scene 4 times!!! Zzz.. It's like they show a summary, den a detailed version of it, den a more detailed version of it, den an even more detailed version of it... Even the raping scene was hilarious but I pity the female actress being raped by such a FAT and UGLY male actor... Nvm, but the girl who got raped was quite hot. Okay, enuf of that, nevertheless, I dun think u'll find it worth ur money to watch it in cinemas but rather u watch at home with ur by whatever means to get the movie... eherm* eherm*


Next up was to rendezvous with my another bestie who just finished work and I guided him by phone to my location. My directions are always good! Hahaha!! At the same time, my another bestie had a really longgggg phone call with a disturbed-facial-expressions... Was kinda worried... Anyways, we reached Singapore Flyer & settled at Popeyes for dinner! 12 piece chicken set was what we got for dinner accompanied by a LARGE fries & a LARGE whipped-potato & 4 LARGE drinks. I think this was the first dinner together filled with no regrets, joy & laughter. Why you ask me? Coz I think it's over & I pulled through and realized the answer which was right beneath my eyes & accepted it? Nvm, no more EMO stuff, let's juz live with content with whatever we have at the moment.


Went up the Singapore Flyer after that and it was wayyyyy better a scenery at night rather than morning/afternoon. I think evening would be nice as well, during the sunset although I've never tried before. Too bad the pictures we took together couldn't capture the background scenery due to the reflection of the camera's flash with the cabin's glass. Nevertheless, we had a great time! After that it was time to go home and sent my bestie to the bus stop as usual before we split ways back home. Til next time guys, luvs.

My iPod ran out of battery!!! Damn bored on the way home, I wonder if I can trade in this old one (iPod nano 1st Generation) for the latest one with longer-lasting battery lifespan... =(

Dunno today rarely emo-ed. I guess I learned to accept it. It was so obviously wrong & dumb of me in the first place. All this while, what was I thinking? Life will be brighter nowadays... I guess... Some things are just better off untold...

P.S. My Facebook damn screwed up... Can't upload pictures... Firefox keeps crashing halfway...

Date : Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Time : 11:59 PM
Title : Marina Barrage (09-09-09)

It's 6.35am right now, just got back from Marina Barrage with my two best peeps like 5 hours ago when the day was still 09-09-09. It was so peaceful there, watched the sunset together and all. It was so breezy that there were people flying kites there. We also saw a newly-wed couple taking their wedding photoshoot there. What a sight. Nicest scenery in Singapore if you ask me. Even being at the highest point of the Singapore Flyer didn't excite me as much as this, of course, you have to come at the perfect timing and not when the scorching sun is high up in the sky. I swear I can just seat there and take in the beautiful scenery for hours... Just being their with friends or that special someone, without the need of saying a single word... It is a VERY good place for thinking! Getting there is a hassle though... Had to walk to the bus stop from the train station and take the bus. Even when going home, the bus alighted somewhere really far from the train station so u gotta walk quite a distance to the train station.

There were so many foreign construction workers there that I felt like whacking them when they give you that look... A bangalah worker who was walking towards us while we were walking towards him actually stared at my friend beside me from head to toe (because she's absolutely pretty! duh!!!) that disgusted me alot and I couldn't stand it that when we passed each other he was still staring with the guts of turning his head towards her that I purposely "knocked/bumped" into him really hard that I'm pretty sure he felt the pain cause it sort of pushed him away as well, a little bit more and he would have fallen to the road where hopefully he'll get banged by a car or even better a lorry. If he were to stop and pick a fight or anything, I already prepared myself of what to say to him, "Why dun u FUCKING watch where u're FUCKING walking instead of staring at girls!?" Seriously if she were my girlfriend, I mean... Which guy likes a bloody Indian to stare at his lovely girlfriend as if she were a sex object, right? What can they say or do to you? "You dun come & Vuck me here & there, I tell you first! Vuck you! I say Vuck you!" Oh plz, they can't even pronounce the word "fuck" properly, "Go back to your country & plant your rice!" My friends are everything to me. I'm prepared to shed blood for them even if it kills me. I'll do almost anything to protect them, keep them happy & be there for them when they need me. But this bloody indian really got my blood boiling when I saw him oogling this far... I SWEAR I FREAKING WANNA BEAT HIM UP! Gonna stay closer to my friend so that no other idiots will dare do stupid stuff again... I can spot these kinda people from far away, there's just too many of them in Singapore... From their facial expressions, eyes, body gesture, actions & behaviour, it's easy to identify these onlookers who are not ashamed of themselves.

Moving on, we went to McDonalds for dinner/supper. My friend met up with her big brother there, cool! It's nice to grow up & still be close to your siblings. I ate & finished up a MEGA MAC, the 2-layered or shall I call it the double-Big Mac? Yeah, that one but I found myself not being able to finish my seaweed shaker fries later on. Had a strawberry sundae to finish it off and the final topics we chatted for the day were really... err... productive... I'm sure it was me... Haiz... Nvm... Sent my friend to her bus stop and waited for her bus as usual, not only because it's dangerous for girls to be alone at night, but also mostly because she means alot to me because I know I'll regret it & can't stop blaming myself for it in the future if anything were to happen to her. Besides, it's common-gentlemen-sense, right guys? Those who say no, you better cut off those proud trophies of urs that you hide in ur pants... Looking forward to seeing you guys again tmr but I'm going town earlier for a while alone to release some anger...

P.S. Didn't attend the official launch of a new club which RSVP-ed me & didn't go club with my bestie this night... Sorry guys, I know you love me & I love you guys too, haha!! We'll go another time, alright? =)